Back to school again... (Part 3)

 After Abdi went back to Slovakia , it became silent again. This silence period became longer than I thought. In this time , at first I used all of my rights to relax,do nothing and enjoy my holiday. After sometime, it became boring again to laze and do the same things everday.  Then I decided to entartain myself because I had a lot of time and I didnt have any duty. After this desicion I began to think what  I could do here . I questioned the differences between Turkey and Denmark that I makes me so bored here and I realised the answer. There were a lot of reasons but among them most important one was friendship relations or concept of that social relation. I realised that I dont have any real friend here that I can enjoy being together except from Hatice. It absolutely doesnt matter for me because I dont need but that had a considerable effect on me because in my country I have a lot of friends and I am loved and cared by them a lot. I always do something with my friends, always because they love me and want to spend time with me sometimes separately sometimes all together so I was always busy but here no one cares no one. I dont have any Danish friend that I can spend time together. Everbody is nice here, if I ask a question they reply, if I need help about something, they help. Whenever we see each other, we greet each other with a smile but that is it. That doesnt mean anything to me because this is just being polite and  not enough for a friendship. At the beginning me and my friends tried to be friends with Danish students here, just to get to know each other but after a while we all understood that we cannot be because whenever we step forward we saw that other people prefer to step back. Our sincerity and efforts to be close are misunderstood. Maybe that was something cultural but it was very disappointing for us because we couldnt understand why. Unlike everyone from any other country who thinks Danish people are generally reserved, I dont think this is just being reserved, this is something else. For example, for some time we speak with someone and think we are very close and it is going very well, but some other day that person doesnt even great us and behave as if we have never spend time together. This is strange and annoying because personally I expect stability in my relationships. No one has to like me but without any reason people change all the time. I feel like everyone wears masks, and you cannot know when will they take off. Firstly people look so interested in us like curious cats playing with an interesting toy trying to understand what it is, and they then lose all of their interest while they are acting as if they love it, and then they change suddenly. So, I saw that I cannot trust anyone here. I am very very sorry if I use any offensive words but I just share how I feel. I do never want to condemn all the people with what I have experienced or observed but the ones that I came across with here suprised me in a dissapponting way. That is why I feel like this. Then, I decided to get on well with everybody, be nice but stay back and accept that situation not to get hurt anymore.  After I realised that fact, I understood that I shouldnt have any expectation from anyone,and I should do something for myself personally.

That was the beginning for me to get to know myself better. I began to spend time in my room searching whatever I wonder on the net. I discovered and learned many things. I also took action. I normally go to swimming pool regularly. For example, I set goals for swimming, and also realised that I love diving. I attended "free diving" and scuba diving courses. My friend Hatice bought a professional diving mask for me as a present which made my day =) and I began to practise diving.

I am also a member of Vordingborg Karate Club . In Turkey, I practise Karate but my style (Shotokan) is different from the one (Gojo Ryu) here. Even though I attend the Karate classes here I didnt care that much before but in this period I realised that I can use these new techniques later on so began to give importance to my Karate training. I learned new board games. I found out new hobbies and interests and I searched everything on the net. I am lucky because as I said before in this century information doesnt belong to any specific people and I have a very effective tool to reach it. I used my this advantage during this time frame. So it was very fruitful period for me. I enjoyed learning new things and doing new things just for my own satisfaction.This timetable lasted till I decided to travel to France , Paris...